.Of Martyrdom and Suicide.

live love life

2010-03-14T06:02:00.000-07:00

people come and go in the company. some left for the better, some left for whatever. it's really surprising to see people to leave.... sad sometimes.. when i starting to like someone, that person leaves. why cant some idiotics leave? oh well, sad to see. but i'm happy they're leaving for the better.

anyhoo, i'm forced to join the energizer marathon on the 27th March =( forced by colleagues and bosses. how in the world can i run for 10km????? i run on threadmill for 3km also wanna die eddyyy laaarrr... oh well, let's just do it for the sake of health hehe.

work's gettin tougher. i've been out to Bangi for a long time. in and out. i'm attached to various departments in Bangi. very good learning experience. seniors and bosses taught me everything they could. it's really good eye opening sessions for me to prepare myself to be CEO. i get to know how every department works and how i can ensure efficiency and productivity. but what sucks the most is that....... i get very bored easily. i just want to go back home and sleeeeepp... what i mean is that, i'm happy to be in Bangi. i get to mingle with lots of people, i get to know their difficulties and they're very extremely happy and friendly people. but when i dont have work to do there, im super lazy and bored. that's a setback to me coz by right, i should be more aggressive by asking them to give me work bla bla bla. aaiiihhhh.......next time i'll be more rajin la =p

oh well, it has been 6 months im in the company. i seriously cant wait to boost my career. but on and off i still do mistakes... sighhh how am i gonna get things right. suckkkkssss laaaaa....

i think i'm putting too much pressure on myself. i seriously need to relax sikit. chillex abit. well, i do chillex in the weekends laaarrr... or when im in office... i'll lari here and there kacau some ppl... if i have time. other than that, i'll chillex in the gym... checking out some hunks.... hehehehe... i'll eat like fuck. i seriously gotta control that. urrggghhhh....

anyways, got my holidays planned.

1st hols done - Penang. i know as usual hehe.
2nd hols - SG at end of May
3rd hols - Thailand end of August
4th hols - prolly to Hard Rock in Penang during raya
5th hols - sydney next year June T.T (i know i plan since duno when and im still here. will save enuf money by then edy laaarrr)

me gettin lazy to blog edy. will keep everyone updated. xoxo!

dreams.

2010-02-08T06:47:00.000-08:00

so, it has been like a month plus since i last blogged. well, CNY's around the corner and everything's lookin pretty good i shall say.

how's life people? has anyone been reading my blog lately? i bet none as it has been ages since i last blogged. moreover, nothin much to brag about hehe.

well, if there's any concern from anyone at all.............

i'm actually doin great =)

definitely there are ups and downs but i think im slowly gettin the hang of it.

yep, we all do miss the good old days back in school and college. it's just fun and no worries in life. i just miss those days waking up late in the afternoon, go for an hour class or two.... have dinner and off to the clubs..... continuing with yamcha session til the sun rise.... boy i do miss those days.

what's life now? apart from working my ass off til 8 plus maximum? apart from hitting the gym?

well, i'm starting to like the so call workaholic thingy in me. it's good to occupy myself with work and soooo much to learn. i tell people often that i wanna be the CEO. and people will be like.....

well, a marketing person becoming a CEO? very rare cases but achievable =)

well, i do believe i can be one some day. looking at how my CEO works? it is seriously amazing. he has to know every single thing from head to tail and it's seriously tough. and what am i doing? im only doing like 5% of his work? gossshhh......how in the world can i be CEO?

moreover, my finance suck like shit. im actually thinkin of takin extra finance courses or somethin... do some logistics... do some sales...

but but but but..... when am i actually going to take action to this? geeezzz.... i don't have money yet haha. ok escape la....

naahh... okay.. i seriously gotta sit and plan what's the next step to my carrier. well, my boss has been very helpful and he's seriously a good boss. he nags when my desk is super messy.... he nags when i carry my recycled papers around to write stuff when he already gave me like 3 decent notebooks... he nags that i shouldnt work in the weekends....

see..he's really nice. i'm really lucky to have him as my boss.. moreover, he teaches me lotsa stuff, the real world sometimes. and the best part is, whenever i say Rudy's my boss... people will be like.... 'ohh yeaa... he's the best boss... very nice person... bla bla bla'

so, really he's nice so far. obviously like what people say in the working life.... some idiotics are just so intolerable. urrgghhhh hate them. but whatever, one day i'm gonna be CEO and they're just gone case!

i think i'm bragging too much bout my dreams. but really, i really wanna be the CEO. is it possible? some people are gonna slam my face and say it's impossible but no harm in dreaming right?

or have my own business?.........seriously... having own business in FMCG is really difficult. god bless everyone man.

i'm targetting to get a good car when im 25. hopefully a really good car. and by 30, my dream car =)

oh well, im really dreamin too much aint it? let's just pray hard and i hope all you readers will get what you want in life too =)

goodnight toodles baby.

happy 2010!

2010-01-01T19:22:00.000-08:00

yoooooo..... i know it's post new year but still..... it's never too late to partay isn't it! hahaha...

hApPy 2010 to all peeps across the world!

it's time to ReFrEsH yOuR wOrLd babeehhhh!

so as usual, everyone needs to have their very own resolutions? what's it gonna be?

1) eat more
2) exercise less

yesss.... i wish these two items can be my new year resolutions...............................2 years down the road T.T

ah well, kinda lazy wanna type the resolutions here. but hopefully all things will go well though. and hope all things will go well to everyone as well =)

aiyaahhh.. so lazy wanna blog already. will keep everyone updated again like in 2635429012625535 years time =p

toodles baby!

wish me luck plllsssss

2009-12-09T06:14:00.000-08:00

MY FUCKING ASS..........

I AM GOING TO PRESENT IN PEPSI'S BREATHTAKING SALES LAUNCH TOMORROW MORNING AT 8.30 AM SHARP!

MY FUCKING ASS IS DYING......

I AM PRESENTING IN FRONT OF PRACTICALLY THE WHOLE COMPANY.... HOW MANY PEOPLE! FUUUCCCKKK LIKE FFUUUUCCCCKKKK..............

I AM SCARED!

i'll provide an update after the presentation tmr. aarggghhhhhh.............

anyhoo.... certain things are just better left unsaid. certain things are always misjudged by others. certain things are just not worth dying for. hehe. mind me.

ggrrrr

2009-12-02T06:10:00.001-08:00

i've just got soooo much to share.... but kinda lazy wanna type here haha... and thank god i have a companion to blurt everything out... otherwise... i cant even share anything with anyone.. lol. boring i know. anyways, working hard with practice... it sucks. my moves are bad. aahhh......

annual hi-tea part 1

2009-11-29T00:31:00.000-08:00

the company's annual hi-tea's coming up. and i still have not gotten myself any outfit. ggggrrrr.....

we will be performing belly dance. miserable, i know. gggrrrrr......

shake shake shake.... til i drop.

gggrrr...... toodlesss.....

confusion

2009-11-14T08:02:00.000-08:00

hmmm... felt abit uneasy all of a sudden. i know i should be happy for it. but i don't even know what is it. but i think its what everyone wants it. or the least is what they have been dreaming about. or what i hope is best for everyone. i know. i'm being confusing to readers right now. mind this post. it's just a mixed feelings either good or bad. should i do something bout it? i mean, is there even a need to do so? things weren't like last time anymore remember? so it'll be odd if i suddenly share the happiness. you know, some people might go bragging about it and make comparisons ...... and i'll go.... errrrrrrr.... as usual... zzzz... ive no idea what should i do about it... should i just go ahead with it.... or just skip the whole thing and leave it aside... ive no idea. sigh. but just so they know, i do wish everyone and me best of luck. everyone has gone this far to getting it. urrgghhh.... how.... why is there even a mixed feelings in the first place? i shouldn't be this kinda person. i shouldn't have this seriously bugging me mixed feelings. it just kills.

but anyway, speaking about karma... i thought what goes around comes around? how come mean people get what they want? wait. why am i talking this way. i mean i could be mean too? but but but.... does it mean those who are meaner than me gets what they want too? gets something even better than me??? thats like soooo unfair... but hey... no i shouldn't feel this way. i am happy with what i have. i am really. that reminds me. i need to do something important as promised to god few months back and i am still not doing it. urrggghhhhhh! haha no its not about being a vegan. hell no to that.

so the question is... should i move forward leaving everything behind.... or should i do my part as a good kind hearted warm friendly bla bla bla bla person? gggrrrr.....

ps: im complaining to fatty king kong over msn bout it and sorry fatty... i just have to disturb you with my story which i know ur totally lost...there is no head or tail in the story.. i just summarized it to you... hehe... fatty replies that i shouldnt get this too personal. i should just ignore.

right.... i should just ignore. i mean, there weren't any effort from anyone... and i myself didnt make any effort to something. so might as well just leave things the way they are. and i think i got what i should get. a slap on my face.

:(

i'm sorry. and im happy for everyone! =)

me and my stupid post

2009-11-13T19:10:00.000-08:00

i know. blame it on me. it is always me and my stupid fucking overrated died-ed post. uurrrggghhhhh! yes i was bragging on it that i didn't have to forecast sales bla bla bla.... and guess what... i've to do it now for next year's May big thing. i'm shaking all over. really scared sial.

urggghhhh! toodles!

flab camp

2009-11-08T01:43:00.000-08:00

what is the freaking point of getting so many free concert tickets and i cant even go at all?

the company gave away All American Rejects and Cuci Musical so far. and i cant go for both.

why the torture? dont ask! uurrggghhhhh!

anyways, been to the gym yesterday for a serious workout. went for 'Easy moves' class and it was pretty good, sweated a little and jumped around a little. no biggie, it's really easy hehehe. then i smartly went to the threadmill and jogged bout 15 mins and played with another machine for 10 mins.

i decided to join the Body Attack class.

IT WAS HELL.

it was like Simpsons Flab Camp. overweight people are suppose to go there and shed the flabs off by vigorous running and jumping around.

WTF. i was effin tired. effin crazy. so many people walked off the class. they're prolly beginners as well. i mightily stayed there til the class ended. i dropped dead of course hehe. i hate the vigorous exercise but it was really good though. the instructor kept pushing and motivating us. i am so gonna achieve my dreams soon.

to be just like her...................

or..................... even worse....................

i might end up like him.....................

let's go to Simpsons Flab camp.

toodles baby.

died-ed

2009-10-29T21:04:00.000-07:00

Szu Yin,

Attached herewith the forecast for Mirinda Sarsi. Pls monitor the Mirinda Sarsi sales on a bi-weekly basis and email to me.

Pls check with me tmrw and I’ll tell you how to go about it.

WTF. saw that or not! i almost died! how the fuckkkkk am i going to do this! and guess what, this msg was being forwarded to this morning... and i scrolled further to read the previous messages.... and i dieeeedddd.... it was from VP of manufacturing sent to CEO sent to Sales Planning Manager sent to Marketing Manager sent to Rudy..... sent to me....

T.T

I'M DEAD!

and i dont understand the figures and the freaking jargons.

im fucked.

anyway, my life is saved when i was told to do just tiny little things.

you know what i felt? IT WAS SUCH A BIG RELIEF. LIKE AN ORGASM. CRAP I KNOW. hahaha yess i was just exaggerating at the first part when it's as if i have to do something so big. hahaha... yes it's not my time yet. i don't even have the chance to update the brand template yet so i wont be doing any big things yet. well is it good or not? well, good in a sense that i dont have to stress myself yet. but its bad in the sense that i will be picking up things quite slow. sshhheeeesshhh.... human is never satisfied.

oh well... had a rough week without Rudy. he went for a holiday this week and i'm left all alone =( it was so hectic to a point that i wanted to tear. soooooo stress without him. i cant imagine whats it gonna be like end of this year when he's off for a long leave and it's gonna be an extremely busy month =(

ah well. deal with it! anyways, breaking news....

stay tuned for December. you're gonna be surprised. or maybe not? haha.

and we'll come back for even more this May 2010. EVEN BETTER!

mind me. my breaking news isn't really a breaking news. it's more like a suspense haha.

gotta hit the gym! toodles baby!

the overated post

2009-10-27T19:55:00.000-07:00

omfg. i cirit birit twice. okay i know i sound disgusting but im tired and feel soooo dead today. anyways, good morning malaysia!

*i just sounded as if i'm back from some other men's island.

anyhoo, i've been craving on chocolates lately, not only craving for em'..... i've in fact ate them without fail everyday in my freaking cold office. tell me about it.... so much for going to the gym and losing weight.. yes i just died-ed in gym last tuesday. oh yea, i've signed up for FF. let's just wait and see how true whatever people are saying about gym.

'don't waste your money laaa.. you wont go often....'

'you will get lazy eventually bla bla bla...'

well, speaking realistically, i do agree to a certain extent that i might get lazy and bum around in gym to check out hunkies....

or i might be like an ex's mum. she goes to the gym every single day because she has the passion to do so.

if we're speaking about exercising, i might not slack off. but if we're speaking about cutting on food intake, seriously.... GO TO HELL. i can't abstain from food. they're my life... my babies... my dreams... my hope...

bleh... f on that. by the way, my colleagues came out with this theme in our office. *supposedly following the 1Malaysia policy

1 Permanis, 1 Policy, 1 Voice.

well it's simple. cutting story short, the CEO has the final say to everything. crack your head to figure it out though it's seriously pretty understood by most. i haven't been uploading pictures. does anyone miss me? anyone at all? does anyone still remember my face? anyone at all? does anyone still remember how fat and sexy i was? seriously, i hope you dont remember because the next time when you see me again, i would love to hear this.....

'omfg szu yin... you lost weight...you look so hot... you're beautiful... hot stuff... bloody skinny chic..'

i know i bragged too much. i just wanna compliment myself for the sake of getting out of boredom right here, right now. Rudy's off to training and on-leave next week. partay time? it's good to hear that. but, i'm really worried and scared. there's practically no one else i can turn to if there's any problem. shit. im so screwed. moreover, work's piling up and lots of things to do. and they're all big projects ending at the same deadline..... and seriously how in the world to multitask? god knows... well, if Rudy doesn't have any problem with it... i don't think i'll be having any.. hehe...

like people say laaa... 'great minds think alike'

ok.. i know i damn lebih edy.

well i shall just cheer you readers up with my fantabulous problem face.

toodles baby!

there are still good people around

2009-10-19T04:41:00.000-07:00

peace! has anyone ever told you that secretaries to MD or CEO or whoever shit are the worst people on earth because they're like so stuck up as they claim to be the closest to the powerful people?

*taaaaaaaaaa* kononnya the buzz sound.

anyways, i love the CEO's secretary, Christine. she's the most helpful and friendliest secretary i've ever known in my whole life! so the situation goes like this... i was late... i had to print out some stuff to be brought over to Bangi for a meeting at 4 pm and it was 3.30 and no one else could help as the colour printer has only authorized access. i was frustrated. i was down with period and aches all over my half paralyzed body. i hate the world.

nobody could print it out for me as they do not have the authorization. the ones who have authorization are all away for meeting. alas, someone asked me to go to the President's office to seek for the secretary. and it somehow appeared as if she's a scary or big person whom you should not mess with or go near to or speak to. nope, i don't understand their facial expression.

so off i went to Christine's office. she was busy having a meeting with her assistant. and she actually asked her assistant to hurriedly help me out. i love them. i seriously love them. i will never forget their good deed. no seriously i'm not exaggerating. i was really in desperate need of help. and they were angelic enough. thank god. in an unrelated story, she did not eat the last bowl of the famous fried rice but instead scooped it out for me during my birthday lunch coz it was my 1st time there and she had it before already. so seriously, she's a really nice person. even rudy and some marketing people jokes around with her. i hope she'll be blessed happily with her kids =)

so there i was. speeding from KL office to Bangi. a norm of 50 minutes journey has turned to a neat 20 minutes journey. how did i reach there so fast and caught Rudy to surprise? i 'FEI CHE' la of course. well in another word, speed like fuck. meeting starts at 4 and i left office at 3.55 pm. so you do the math. and i was lucky enough that the meeting started a little late and my boss rudy went off much earlier than me and i thought my day's gonna end coz i was super late. just thank god.

so speaking about food...... i had my Raya makan makan in office today. okay, so i took rice and lemang and rendang.... so i went for a second round... so i had lots of chocolates.... so i had lots of cakes..... and my colleagues said this is the first time i eat quite a bit. (well as in i eat alot). abit the weird coz i thought i always eat alot. okay so im embarrassed now =p

anyways, went for another buffet last sunday, Avanti Restaurant in Sunway Resort. it's an itallian buffet and omfg it's superb. the current promotion is on the Citibank credit card with 40% off. so it comes to about RM50 per person. the ambiance is worth paying for, well the food as well lar. superbbbbbb...... no pictures sadly hehe.

well i wish i could share more pics on the happenings lately but unfortunately pc has been reformatted and ive no idea where my bro kept all the pixies. screw it. i'm mentally tired. i could use a little good piece of chocolate now. gosh.

again, thanks Christine and Nurul! =)

updates for the sake of it

2009-10-18T03:56:00.000-07:00

updates updates... im big time screwed. i've been stuffin myself with fantabulous buffet. this is getting ridiculous. i'm transitting from overweight to obesity. omfg. i'm so dead.

just came back from a lunch buffet in Avanti, Sunway Resort. it is magical, beautiful and fantabulous! it's really so god damn good. the price is RM75 per person but if you have any UOB or Citibank card u get like 40% off per head. i love credit cards hehe. the place serves varities of pasta, pizza, desserts, meat and lots lots lots.... and u get a main course as well. so is this place good or what? unfortunately no pics taken. im seriously too lazy to upload it. just go and experience it for yourself. im in heaven once again.

i must have done lots of good stuff in my past life until im so blessed with marvelous buffet these few weeks. just kill me please urrgghhhh....

anyways, how's work? not too bad again. damn malas wanna update much haha. just rushing for datelines etc. otherwise... all okay!

how's my relationship? well, there are definite ups and downs but fingers crossed, all should be fine. i really hope both of us can be happy together. and i hope my friendship with my old mates are doing good as well. we're trying our level best to keep us all together every month at least for a reunion. so it was a steamboat and bbq session last month. and this month we shall prolly have some pot luck party.... or costume party for the halloween or hmmm i dont know. whatever. need some assistance for brain storming here please.

hitting the gym? yes, once michelle reverts to me with a good offer, and to MR.GYM here we go!

anyways, wish i could upload pixies here but bloggin from bro's lappie. so forget it. wait til my fingers and butt are hardworking enuf to move to the pc.

toodles baby!

food lovers

2009-10-12T05:40:00.000-07:00

had my very first annual general meeting today.

seriously... they don't get name and paid for nothing. they work their ass off. they're intelligent. maybe not all. maybe just one.

i adore dato johari. he is one hack of a spontaneous and well mannered man. he answers clearly to all questions and he knows every single thing.... from finance to marketing to operations and whatsoever. he's the man! and to others who were on the same boat... i'm speechless.

so i'm getting busy day by day. interesting. i learnt alot. the CEO whom i thought was once friendly is now fierce in the boardroom. no wonder he's successful. i adore him too.

i found makan partners in office. those who loves everything that i love to eat. zzzommgg... it's hard to find people with the same brain wave man... yeppp so i've been eating loads recently... trying out all the good food in KL. zzzommmgggg.... and yesss im on gym trial. haha god bless me.

i've been to Tenji like twice already this month. and the quality drops comparing the first and second visit. screw it. im waiting to hit Miyako in Sheraton again. anyone? and my trip to kajang satay is coming soon hehehe! i just love KL people.

toodles!

i need that mojo again.

2009-09-28T04:43:00.000-07:00

ok la. since i havent been blogging lately and coincidently i finish work early today, so lets start pouring out everything today. just realised that i did not blog about my bday haha. well nothing much though, just celebrated with friends, colleagues and family. lots of pics to be put up but i'll see if i rajin enough to put it up or not. anyways, hows life treatin me lately?

well, not too bad though. gettin all the holidays i want. it's really awesome hehe. get to wake up late, get to go lepak around. yes i do miss life a student but still abit the relieved that i dont need to rush assignments anymore hehe! but as for work load, there's much to rush in the times to come now. ggrrr....

so how's work? some friends have been doing pretty well in their work.really happy for them =) as for me, yeah i kinda like working in Permanis. i really get to learn lotsa new stuff, meet new people and meet other big companies which we're dealing with. it's really an eye opening experience and seriously, there's more to come... i am somehow feeling the pressure but at the same time enjoying it as well. colleagues have always asked me how am i coping with work and why am i so quiet etc....

'work's ok la. slowly coping. but it'll be better if i have something to do rather than nothing to do'

'dont worry. u will be doing lots of work later'

zzzzz..... anyhoo... im a lil quiet coz i still feel shy to mingle. well it's not that i didnt try mingling. its just that its abit difficult to open up as i still dont know the working culture over there. yes, they're all friendly people. and i enjoy like hell during lunch coz i get to go everywhere to eat! zzoommffggg bleh. but i kinda need a lil mojo to not be shy. sigh.

okay. i'm out of inspiration to write. brain freeze. try out slurpee from 7-11 and take part in the competition as well. brain freeze. bleh....

toodles.

bleh.

2009-09-27T22:34:00.000-07:00

peeps. blogging from office. gonna go off to Bangi in half an hour's time. need to do a quickie here. anyone has any idea how much a gym membership would cost now? preferably fitness first. thanks! xoxo...

hehe i know im full of crappies. but i'm blogging secretly here. wish i could type out as much as possible but scared boss ter-see what i doing.. grrr.. and i miss some people. havent seen them in awhile now.

i need to club too. the itchiness is coming back hehe.! as if i can go right. arrgghh...

been stuffin myself with lots of good food lately. next stop shall be the Brazilian buffet again. lets see how's my weighing machine friend doing.

zzommfgg. bleh.

zzz

2009-09-14T05:54:00.000-07:00

okie... lots to blog.. but not in the mood now.. why do people like to break other people's heart? they got no other work to do but to break another person's heart. get a life man. i really wanna write panjang lebar on my life right now but really not in the mood. well in short, life has been okay so far. good and bad. im gonna make it through everything. bless me! and screw some arses.

first day at work.

2009-09-01T05:36:00.000-07:00

i am sooooo tired.... have been reading lots lots lots of materials today. very good learning indeed. get to learn lotsa new stuff and new marketing strategies. i'm amazed.... and terrified at the same time. there's so much to learn and i've to pick it up asap coz i think i'll have to get involved in dont know which project. i'm really scared. what if i cant do it? what if i dont get to pick it up fast? aaihhhh....

anyways, colleagues are rather friendly. and guess what? i had lunch with the managers today... i think it's two brand managers and one trade marketing manager altogether.. and another two brand execs and a sales support. and i stupidly ordered 100 plus drink and got a lil screwed up. i seriously totally forgotten 100 plus is competitor's. aarrgghhh..... and they were serious... i had to change my order to iced milo... i was sooo kan chiong.. i felt like.... killing myself.. stabbing myself with a sharp knife... that moment was soooo intense. but nothing much though... just screwed up a little hehe.

and... my desk... nice.. spacious.. hehe.. i likey... but i dont likey the environment... whyyyy... cozzzz.... i'm sitting in between managers! front left right centre back... tension... vveerryyy tensionnnn... and my left side is the bigger manager... the main marketing manager... and behind somwhere is the CEO... i feel even more..... tension! the CEO's kinda friendly though. he's like the best CEO i've ever met in my whole working life... well technically coz he's just friendly from the first impression... but i really wouldnt know hows it gonna be like later on when i start on my real job..

i'm still scared. feel like peeing in my pants. zzz....

i went for the first meeting with an event/creative agency today. the brand and product being discussed there was regarding the tropicana twister. my manager set me in there to have a feel what the meetings are like. so i was learning a little from the brand exec and the agency. looks tough. tension again haha... and i got to know at that point of time that the brand exec was going off for a vacation on the 17th of sept... and the people from the agency was like... 'so when u go holiday, then we'll be dealing with her isit'.... (that her was me)

and she said YESSSS.... my jaws dropped. i was peeing in my pants already lar dammit... and the agency people actually wished me best of luck.. craappppp i already puking blood halfway edy... ggrrr... gone la this time...

btw, i'm currently handling two big brands. the pressure is there. i'm really stressed up. but at the same time feeling very proud to be able to handle two big brands. ahhhh still very tension...
i didnt know Permanis actually have soooo many brands... pepsi, mirinda, 7up, lipton, gatorade, blue, shot, excel, evervess, frost, chill, tropicana twister etc etc etc etc.... try looking out in the website.. haha i'm too lazy to name it all here...

it's just my first day..... spare me... im sooo tired... and excited at the same time... and scared...

toodles baby!

memories.

2009-08-27T09:03:00.000-07:00

helooooo! yes, i did not abandon my blog for like a zillion years this time. hehe. i just got back from pyramid. suppose to do shopping for dresses and formal clothes, but end up eating like nobody's business. my diet plan is gonnneee.... and after the eating hunt, fei kai and i went yamcha with Alex, Cath and Jacey. it's been soooo long since i last met them. a year ago????

goosshhhh... time flies and they changed alot. okay, Cath is seriously sexier and slimmer. Alex, upgraded from a drug addict to a smart boy hehehehe! just kiddin alex! yeah, the yamcha session was a little short but it was good, being able to catch up with old friends just reminded me how beautiful life is. the next chapter of life is gonna be different. i'm gonna meet different types of people and faces. so i'm gonna have to be up for it.... i'm gonna miss everything in the past. i'm gonna miss the old friends... the old life... the old memories... oh yeahhh btw, some people are still...... isshhhh..... sooo immmaturreeee..... grow up la plsssss.... past is past la okay... stop bringing up the past la okaaayyy.... you seriously damn got nothing to do isit.... urrghhhh some peopleee....

okay sorry for the harshness. just cant tolerate certain behaviour =p sighhh i really miss the yamcha session just now. i havent had that laughter for soooo long like 26253729192927373 years!!!! and yesss..... rub it in.... alex is gonna party like mad and cath is awaiting to club next year! hahaha dammnnnn......

right, to those of you who wants to go on a diet plan..... do it properly. don't result to any massive-abstaining-from-food programs, slimming pills, bullemia and others. some might even want to do it the healthy way, they go green by being a vegetarian. noooo... the right way is to seriously eat properly and exercise regularly. i did very well when i exercised and ate properly. it is just these recent days i decided to be a vegan to thank god for his blessings. and noppeee it did not exactly make me lose weight at all. well, i did lose a little, prolly a kilo or two in few days but it is seriously not a healthy way. ive been stuffing myself with snacks like biscuits, bread, sweet drinks.... and lots lots more... it actually defeats the purpose of dieting.... and moreover, being a vegan... and moreover, thanking god it seems. siggghhhh....

i'm just a day or two away before i start being a carnivour. i cant wait for that deep fried chicken. yes, like i said. i've defeated all purposes. sigh. on the other hand, i promise i will fulfil what i promised few weeks back. it's really hard.... just hard....

anyways, am i on the right track? i'm really happy and proud of myself for going this far. i've even got compliments and suppport from the family, boyfriend and certain friends. but why is it that some people are not being supportive? are they truly teasing me for not getting the best in life? are there any hidden elements of envy and anger in them? or i'm prolly just thinking too much? they prolly did not mean it. it's okay. i seriously musn't keep it in heart or it will destroy me real fast. i know what i'm capable of. i know when are the times when i've to appreciate whatever i have in life.

okay kinda tired now. gonna sleep... another long day for shopping tmr. tooodleesss!

holiday!

2009-08-23T22:01:00.000-07:00

yo peepsss... i just got back from Penang. sadly i didnt get to tan =( so i'm still as white as a snow white. sigghhhhh........... hahaha.. anyways, took lotsa pixies... have a pixie fun scrolling ahead.

toodleesss!

like thanks alot.

2009-08-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

i feel so demotivated suddenly. i dont even get appreciation for the little things which i've done. sad case. ggggrrrrr.....

toodles hell.

with love.

2009-08-17T00:55:00.002-07:00

hollaaaa! i took an hour to do my blog pixies. yesss the pictures at the top part of this blog. is it nice? haha i think it's so far my best piece of art considering the fact that i'm already a little computer illiterate and moreover dumb witted in arts.

love the pixies.

i'm bored right now. i cant sleep and it feels soooo hot, really. should i go to the movies? or just laze home?

beepo. toodles!

thank you.

2009-08-17T00:55:00.001-07:00

it's confirmed. life isn't that bad after all. i'm gonna appreciate everything and thank god for all the blessings and the things which he has done for me throughout the whole 22 years. god has his plans and i believe any of you will get your miracles like i did. thank you =)

on another hand, i'll be off to vacation again this weekend. yes, penang again. still cant get my mouth of the mouth-watering local cuisines. ahhhh.... so will be doing the usual routine, prolly get tanned and some sight seeings with the family and relatives perhaps.

went jogging this evening at the park... it was a terrific day for me until an unfortunate event occured. a far relative passed away. and i only got to know about it when i saw the workers were setting up the tents at that point of time. sadly, it all happened too fast. i only met this relative prolly like less than 10 times in my whole life. but it is usually unhappy to see such event occuring in this world.

on a brighter note, i will start work on the 1st of september. so that means i will have like approximately a week to enjoy the laziness at home. im so gonnnnaaaa miss those moments. getting intimate with the bed, the tv, the computer, the fridge....... =.=

despite of the laziness, i am actually nervous and looking forward to start work on the 1st. i hope it's gonna be a good day and month since the birthday's near.

YES IT IS A REMINDER TO ALL OF YOU! HAHHAHAHA! damn i'm evil.

i havent been posting any beautiful pics of me lately. i think i'll just bring back some old pics to let you remember how i looked like before. hehe.

remember me always. toodles! =)

good day!

2009-08-17T00:55:00.000-07:00

maybe.... just maybe....

life isn't so bad after all :)

a stab in the heart.

2009-08-16T20:35:00.000-07:00

ok. im not gonna start the day with complaints and zzzzzzzzzzz!

here goes!

I AM SOOOOO TENSION!

okay i was supposed to scan and send all the relevant documents to my hoping-to-get-into-this-company but i didnt have scanner to begin with. so the alternative here is to either go all the way to Bandar Baru Bangi to give the hardcopies or to go to a shop scan and email them. so i opted for the second option.

it was 9.30 am in the morning. the frequent visited shop was closed and i was already feeling ^%$$&*()()$%$&.... well how can they be so lazyyyyy in doing business??? fine... i hopped to the next shop. asked for a scan and guess how much was it....

a big fat RM2 per piece! and i had like 20 pieces of certificates altogether! omfg!

and so little did i know of the knowledge of bargaining, i managed to secure a RM1 per piece. i know, it's still expensive but zzzz.... no choice unless i go hunting for other shops which i seriously do not have time to mess around with.

anyways, waited like 263648292092933626 years to get all the scanning done. i hurried home and zipped everything and sent the email to the particular person in charge. i called.

" i have not received your email. the files are too big. why dont you fax it to me?''

i went berserk. i could have actually faxed it to him and save RM20!

so i was filled with mixed emotions. i have then finally decided to stay calm and send the email in various parts. hehe. yes of course it worked. and it took me the whole morning to do it. pardon me for being a little computer illiterate.

oh well, he has finally gotten the emails. and i seriously hope everything would turn out well. please bless me god =)

toodles!

hoping for the slightest miracle.

2009-08-13T00:42:00.000-07:00

people around telling me not to give up the slightest hope. in fact, it just happened this morning. of course it's impossible to know the result yet. but looking at the way things happen this morning??? i doubt it will be a happy ending.

WAIT!

i got another news. is there gonna be the slightest hope coming in the way? is there going to be?????

god, please bless me =(

it's all gone. just gone.

2009-08-12T21:07:00.000-07:00

it's been cloudy. it was smooth. everything was smooth.

palms were sweaty. heart was pounding as fast as it could have ever been.

the world is spinning. vision got blurry. breathing was as suffocating as it was in the mind.

i finally screwed it all up.

i will never have the chance to step in anymore.

i will never be who i ever wanted to be.

it's all gone. just gone.

mixed feelings

2009-08-11T20:27:00.000-07:00

just received some news. i'm not feeling easy about it.
it's not that im not happy. yes, i'm happy but feeling uneasy at the same time.
i dont understand why am i reacting this way.
past is past. future is coming.
there shouldn't be anything coming into my way. there shouldnt be any obstacles interfering me.
i dont understand.
why am i so paranoid?
am i always a fighter? no, i wasn't. am i now?
why should i be a fighter? it's good to be a figther because the best man wins at the end of the day.
but being a fighter will cause problems as well. i will not be me anymore.
i shouldn't have acted that way. i shouldnt even have that thinking.
i just hope some future news which i will receive will not have a dreadful impact on me.
i take things for granted sometimes.
i shouldn't have that thinking.
snap out of it. learn this new lesson.
i should be happy no matter what. i dont go for buddhist lessons for nothing. *i went for the classes when i was a child =.=
i should be contented with what i have now. i shouldn't have all the negative feelings...

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enough of that. in another hand, i miss my baby so much. i'm sooo gonna miss him next week. while me going off sun tanning, he will be taking care of our baby boy at home. i love u bb muuuaaxxxx...

oh btw, my new crush!

WILBER PAN!

omfg. he's just the most handsomest thing i've ever seen. yes i like him more than JAY CHOU! surprising right haha.

well, just go and watch that video with his collaboration with Akon (be with you). darn he's soooo handsome. and my fat boy was actually jealous that im so in love with Will. craazzeeeee......

ahhh... god, please bless me and all my friends for a better future. please bless me and fat boy and baby boy as a happy family. please bless my siblings for good academic results. and finally, please bless us all stay happy forever =)

i really need to go temple already. not in peace of mind hehe.

toodles!

stress giler

2009-07-30T21:28:00.000-07:00

well.... hello sunshine!

i just came back from the Nestle warehouse sale and i bought like the whole warehouse haha. yeeppp RM100 worth of chocolates and cereals. ommmggg it just feels like heaven and life is soooo wonderful with the chocolates. can you smell the aroma?

soooo speaking about life these days.

kinda had a busy week last week. went through several interviews and assessments in UOB and it was really an amazing experience! i thought all the interviews were standard in MNCs and big companies but it seems that my session appeared to be even tough compared to other several companies such as Loreal, Canon, GAB etc.

yeppp they asked tricky questions and it was just baaaddd.... there isnt any time to lose at all. everything is about time and fast fast fast! it was three hectic sessions. the first session requires team work from another 3 team mates of mine. the second session was all about critical and creative thinking. i did pretty well and i was even amazed by a team mate whose name is Penguin hehehe.... he was from Taylors as well and boy he is damn brilliant and has really good characteristics of himself. i believe he can go really far with his best leadership skills. as for the other two team mates, they're kinda good as well and hope they get their dream job though!

so it was an amazing experience, i definitely learnt alot and i hope i'll be able to put all these to good use for my biggie interview another MNC tomorrow. *keeping my fingers crossed* i went for Munchy's as well and suck laarr... horrifying as well haha. well just hope that i get either one of these biggie companies though. i would really hope to get into Reckitt too!

just praying hard for all these. haha.

in an unrelated story, i got pulled over by several police today. kns. i did not do anything wrong and they were just plain bored i guess. so one of them approached me, and the rest were targetting on other innocent drivers. he asked for my id and license and asked several questions like where i live and where am i heading to. nonsense. then, he started 'flirting' like telling me how 'manis and comel' i am....... then telling me he was damn handsome when he was young... cant find any 'baik' policeman like him now. craaappp..... and of course.... i was like.... 'ya la ya la memang baik....'

and he even asked me if he's handsome.... i was like =.=" ...... 'very handsome laaaa'

fucckk.. stupid idiot... waste my time.

ahhhh... but thank god i brought my wallet out.

i haven't been reading and stalking on some people's blog for a very long time. well im just trying to avoid reading em' because i know some things are just not worth reading for. haha i know i sound ridiculous and silly but i dont wanna read some things which are not truthful. yesss don't mind me. i cant say things right at times hehe. aiyoohhh i dont know what im crapping about haha.

ah well... exams have finished long time ago. results were also out. and several college friends and i had sorta farewell/graduation/congratulation dinner in Pyramid. yepp sorta a toast for graduation and looking forward to strive in the near future. gonna miss everything in my past. it's time to move forward! good luck to those of you who will be starting work this week!

gonna bake my mash potato with shrimps and white sauce now!

toodles!

baby boy.

2009-07-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

my poor baby.

he's left alone in the shop.

i feel so siccckkk.....

right... my baby boy is in a clinic @ grooming centre having his hair cut and grooming session. i miss him so much. i never been faraway from him for few hours. well, i did leave him home for few hours to go out play with friends... but but but.... leaving my baby under the hands of a stranger?? =(

i hope he'll be doing good there. i know he misses me.

btw, feel free to visit this website.

http://www.creamycolours.blogspot.com

it's a website selling cookies, cakes and other sort of pastries. looks interesting. and they're pretty new though. so check it out!

toodles!

ggrrrr

2009-07-21T07:28:00.001-07:00

i am just sooo fucking angry that i can eat everything in the world right now!

yes youuuu... maggi goreng... i gonna eat u up til u wish u were never created!

aarrggghhhhh! soooo uuuuurrrgghhhhhhhh!!!!!!

Bukit Jugra part ii.

2009-07-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

here are some pending pictures during the Bukit Jugra trip.

toodles!

praying hard.

2009-07-16T20:31:00.000-07:00

i've struggled the semester 6 battle with four hard-core subjects.

Investment and Banking Project Finance (IBPF)
Financial Accounting 1 (FA1)
Advertising (ADV)
Public Relations 2 (PR2)

from the begining of the sem, i was traumatized with IBPF because it is a finance subject. and everyone knows how screwed up i am in calculations of pv, fv, npv, cfi.... ommggg get it out of me. and in fact, i actually failed the first half of the sem which includes the first and second assignment. i got 14.5 over 30 ..... i know... another 0.5 marks i'll be awarded a pass.. so screwed up. i was so scareeedd.... i scared finals will affect me real badly. but, thank god, the finals was do-able. but hopefully i did not screw it up again with silly mistakes. i'm really hoping for a pass
=(

next, adv and pr2 were horrible as well. i was sooo afraid of plagiarism and running-out-topic assignments.... but thank god, i did reasonably well for those two subjects. thank you god.

finally, it was easy for FA1. assignments were so great. revision was even better. i was so hardworking. went for study groups and even taught some people on how to tackle the questions. and guess what, i was practically crying during the exam. =p yepppp i couldn't do it! i've no idea why. i sorta forgotten everything. and totally screwed up everything. sigh.... i just hope for a pass... i dont mind if its even a sympathetic pass...

i just need to pass everything so that i can get my dream job. =(

toodles!

IQ Test

2009-07-15T19:53:00.000-07:00

ommggg ommmgg ommmmgg oommmggg.... try this out!

Imagine you're in Africa. You have been tied hanging on a tree with a rope anchored on the ground, a candle is slowly burning the rope, and a lion is waiting for you to drop to be his lunch.

Your survival hinges on the rope being attached; there is no one there to help you. What would you do? Decide on your action before scrolling down for the answer. You'll be amazed.

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Answer:
SING A HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG

wish me luck!

2009-07-15T03:11:00.000-07:00

my big day is on the 27th of July. it's soooo huge. i'm scared. well, there could be bigger days from tomorrow until the 28th of July. like prolly..... super huge. yeppp i'm crapping. i wish i could reveal my happiness right now. but i cant.... it's always the saying goes....

'you dont tell out your dreams or it will never come true'

but, will my dreams or just one dream ever come true? i dont know =(

wish me luck people!

Bukit Jugra

2009-07-13T08:09:00.001-07:00

so, like i said. life isn't always a fairy tale. it's easy to dream big..... so big until there are no boundaries and not even the sky is a limit to our dreams.

but, does it take ages to execute the dream? or you're just gonna sit and deem about it again and again with no action? it's a little difficult to gain courage to execute dreams.

if i ever wanna make a big dream come true....

i need help.
i need a story.
i need a plan.
i need motivation.
i gotta get my mojo.

i've made some new friends lately. pretty nice people i shall say. we could prolly share the same similarities and it's much easier to do that two way communication thingy. amazing.

i went to Bukit Jugra also known as Ham Sua in hokkien, with the boyfriend and some other friends. it's a pretty long winded and sickening journey. but it was worth while at the end of the day. what did i get?

An eight-course-meal in a deserted area with their signature dishes.

they claimed to be the best in Klang and the whole malaysia i suppose. the food was great but prolly a lil too pricey for the ambience.

what else did i get?

i got to know some friends even better.

and most of all, i got to whisper my dreams to one of the famous chinese gods.

ceteris paribus, i will get what i wished for.

*keeps my fingers crossed*

zzzzzz.....

2009-07-07T08:58:00.000-07:00

yeeesss im back from my first supposedly vacation haha. well, Genting and everywhere else. lol.

been lazying around at home today... a lil bored but kinda coping with boredom with contentment anyway.

been for interview on Monday and im not sure if it sucks or not. well if i get the second call, i think i did well. if not, screw it then =( i do hope to get in there though. it's a huge company hehe. but, awaiting and praying for other bigger companies to call me up.

pleeaaaseeeee i do hope i get in.

anyways, congrats to those who got their dream job! you girls and guys really deserve it for your hard and vigorous effort.

toodles!

regrets.

2009-06-30T18:38:00.000-07:00

yoooo hoooo! i'm finally done with IBPF! the tormenting subject. it's a big big big relieve! well the paper was alright, with a confirmed loss of 15 marks due to an unsolved question lol. i hope i get the others right without silly mistakes or i'll be totally ruined!

it's FA1 tomorrow. i'm even more horrified because it ain't open book. zzzz... i hate taylors for that. hope i'll do my best though!

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anyways, was mesmerizing the college days on the bed earlier this morning. kinda regret for not taking up some business competition or stuff like that. i should have tried participating in at least once then it can seriously boost up my resume =(

Ms.Oh, a dedicated Marketing lecturer in Taylors, once forced me to join one competition with Mervyn and dont know who. i dont remember what competition was that but it was kinda big, much bigger than the Taylor's Business Plan competition.

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the story goes like this. i was blur as usual. still playing around and having the best times in life. A friend of mine who was very close to Mervyn approached me. he told me that Mervyn will be participating in this competition and Ms. Oh wants me to join with him and dont know who.

so i was like...... 'dont joke weh. impossible she'll ask me to join la ok... she would have asked suk yee or whoever else who are like damn smart right.... go die la u....'

yesss, rude but that's how i talk to close friends hehe.... very friendly right hehe...

eh wait... maybe Ms. Oh did ask her and some others to join as well.. haha!

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so the conversation ended and we all went to her class on that morning. as usual, when the class is gonna end, i'll be packing my stuff asap and the mind's wander off to playtime. as i was gonna leave the class like nobody's business, she wanted to see me in her office. i was like..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

so she told me that she wanted to me join this competition bla bla bla......and i was shocked..... with a big voice.....

'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!'

and the lecturer goes..... 'WWWHHHHHYYYYYY!'

'no la miss..... i cant do this. i'm not capable and it's just soooo tough... kenot laaa....'

'u can do it okay.. just join and try this competition out....'

'dont want la miss.... cannot la.. i lazy... got sooo much work to do la... kenot la..'

ps: the conversation is not exactly word for word as it was. but it was somewhere like this.

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so, i'm regretting big time now for not joining this competition long time ago. fyi, it was in year 2007 haha. i really really really should have joined it... otherwise i wont be having a hard time applying in super big MNCs..... i seriously should have just grabbed that opportunity. whyyyyy oh whhyyyyy! so im not sure if Mervyn was still going on with that competition 2 years back, perhaps Ms. Oh asked others to join in as well. i dont know if they won anything but glad that it could be a great experience for them. oh well, i cant turn back time. but i hope i can outperform during the working days..... okaayy that's if i get to a good company lol!

*keep my fingers crossed*

i hope Supeng, Hui Yoke, Cecilia, Ja and any others who have been and going for interviews soon can get their dream job too. and some friends will go to their parents company straight, which is like.... so good for them... and some would continue Masters.

so where will i be?

Permanent

2009-06-30T09:05:00.000-07:00

i've heard this song like super long time ago and i think i'm loving it again. it's prolly my period, but i actually cried singing to this lyrics. like zzooommmggg........ anyways, here's permanent by David Cook. he apparently dedicated this song to his lost somebody. i dont know who. lol. i might be a biggie fan of him.

"Permanent"

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?

Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry

And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone When no one's there to hold your hand?

And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head

I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day

And so I ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place

And when they say it's all touch and go I wish I could make it go away

But still you say Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand? When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head

I'm permanent

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?

Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry

pending pictures.

2009-06-24T21:24:00.000-07:00

hey people! here are some pending pictures from previous posts.

The Japanese Buffet in Agefuku Restaurant

the half drunken face in Neway Karaoeke.

well obviously these are not the only food served throughout the buffet. there are tonnes of others but we did not take the pictures. these are the lovable desserts haha. the best part in the buffet was their sushi whereby this lady will make the sushi upon request. on top of that, the songs there are pretty marvellous. they have like complete songs with lyrics of Linkin Park and some latest songs by other bands as well. pretty amazing i shall say.

anyways, IBPF's getting near and im really tormented. i don't understand the freaking theories and it's like for the first time i actually love calculations compared to theories. may god bless me!

gggrrrr toodles!

stress

2009-06-23T02:39:00.000-07:00

stress is compiling every single minute.

on top of that, unnecessary stress.

i feel like im at the edge of a cliff....

falling soon and real hard anytime.

i hate it. i need something to save me.

a Mars bar perhaps hehe!

yeah it's like pretty obvious that im exaggerating on my stress level coz i just want to find excuse to eat something sweet

ggrrrr!

poem!

2009-06-22T03:49:00.000-07:00

mission failed. i did not jump into the river despite of the fact that i hate jogging. ggrrrr....

anyways, as i was running, i remembered coming across to a poem by a friend. so, i edited a little to dramatize this poem. here goes.

there was this little princess,
who has everything she wanted,
from candies to evening gowns to diamonds.
there she was, standing at the top of the fortress,
waiting to be saved,
as she gazed upon the happy citizens,
with envy and sadness.
she longs for prince charming.
and there he comes, riding the stallion with bravery and
might.
she was saved alas.
this little princess has no one but prince charming,
little did she know that she was in fact lonely,
she needs companion,
not just any peasants or maids,
she needs friends.
as she walking by the aisle of the castle,
she noticed some people who were laughing and enjoying every
penny they have earned for.
she wants to share their joy,
and soon, they were all friends.
these people were pleasant,
they shared the same honesty, integrity, love and trust.
everything seems so real,
everything seems so blissful.
at the back of these pretend happiness are purely
sadness,
these people weren't nice as they appear to be,
they were tormenting other living citizens.
the princess knew and felt the pain of the innocent
citizens,
but she couldn't do anything.
infact, she defended these people, she still love them for who
they are.
helpless, she just sat there, gazing upon the wishing
stars.
the princess was unfortunate,
these people started tormenting her.
they were no longer who they were,
they are now disgusting little creatures.
these disgusting little creatures were ungrateful,
the princess shared everything with them,
helped them as if there was no tomorrow,
defended them despite being hated by the citizens,
and all she get was a betrayel punishment.
the princess has grown up,
little did she know that her prince charming was there for her
at all times,
the princess was too greedy,
she wanted everything and she has got everything,
but she was never satisfied,
until she knows what is important in life.
thankfully, the citizens were there for her,
they embraced and cherished her,
for her love, tender and warmth.
these disgusting little creatures,
they were always alone and will always be alone,
no citizens would ever speak a word to them,
for they were despicable and evil.

end of story! ommmgg does it sound like a happy ending fairy tale or what? haha

of diets and a supposedly healthy lifestyle.

2009-06-22T01:58:00.000-07:00

ommmgggg IBPF's gonna kill me real soon. the pain hasn't started but the thought of it is agonizing enough! gggrrrr.....

okay, what should i do now? i really wanna go for a nappy but but but..... i just had few bites of fried chicken and oyster mee suah! kill me please. yeppp im not gonna eat dinner tonight. i've tried sooooo hard to lose weight but i dont know if it's even working. argh i hate myself. what else do i hate? life.... omggg haha... and and and and..... some needs to go back to kindergarten to learn the appropriate manners, language and perhaps get a hold on ABC and 1+1 !

i feel a little bit mature today after the long years of being a student. it was all about playing games, shopping and clubbing. well, i know being me, a girl, it is totally normal to do so but i'm getting the hunch and lessons now. of course if i have that extra CASH i'll still go shopping and to getaways like crazy. clubbing? hahaha soon sooon..... very soooonnn..... games? im not into games, i'm into studying. like LOL!

okayyyyy back to my maturity... no, i'm not going through the stage of menopause. i'm just growing up, stepping into adulthood. i need to get THE ONE motivation to kickstart the adulthood. what's it gonna be?

i browsed through an ex-colleague's blog. she went into a cabbage soup diet? the receipe is a little bit..... torturing to me. i mean, I SWEAR TO GOD I CAN NEVER DO THAT. i will die 100 times man! i salute u, Keisha! break a leg and tell me hows it! and do share out some tips to losing weight so that i can hopefully be hardworking enough to follow it hehe.

okay i'm off to jogging now. i wish i can jump into the river and drown myself so that i will never have to jog again....ever.... ever in my whole life! aargghhhh!

ps: i'm suffering from dieting-and-abstaining-from-food depression hahaha!

toodles!

found guilty

2009-06-17T02:27:00.001-07:00

okay, i'm prolly too bored that im spending too much time blogging. my day's kinda wasted today. went to college library this morning to have a study group discussion with Ja and Cecilia and we ended up chatting instead of studying.

.FOUND GUILTY.

we chatted lotsa stuff and holiday plans were brought up. the favoured destination was Bangkok. i wanna go so badly! but considering there are cases of H1N1 and my job which i dont know when i'll get one, i'm still hesitating. i didn't manage to go Genting with the whole bunch of them last time, so this is like their another last successfully planned outing. haha!

.FOUND GUILTY.

i'm not suppose to be thinking of holidays haha. but but but..... if i really get to go, it'll be like trips from melaka to genting to singapore to penang to melbourne and to bangkok!

OMG. just kill me.

my deary boyfriend's gonna bring me to Genting and the rest is awaiting Supeng! god, i really want time to pass by A.S.A.P!

toodles!

monday blues

2009-06-14T18:03:00.000-07:00

i'm starting to hate blogging for some reasons. getting bored of it already haha.

im sick now! shiiiiitttttt..... exams are coming soon and i'm having cough and fever! flu has yet to come and i know i'll get it soon. dieee haha..

okaayyy need to rest. toodles!

aiyohhhhh

2009-06-14T06:23:00.001-07:00

pain laaaarrrrr......

supeng maybe coming back for good.. i hope! of course i want her to pursue her studies and stay there permanently. but it's good to have her back coz i can finally go out and explore the food world with her! haha!

pleeeaaaseeee help meeee.....

*gimme more food then i'll be extremely happy*

i need steamboaaattt........... my QQ tauhu.....

went to Agefuku for japanese buffet with the boyfriend last saturday. it was good with better varieties this time. ommmggg! pictures will be posted later.

next stop, Neway K-buffet and Greenbox again hehe.

and more holidays to come after finals! *hopefully*

sueh.

2009-06-11T09:10:00.000-07:00

yesss... it's a bad day today.

my eyes were blinking alot when i was having an outing with Anne in Jusco this evening. they kept on blinking until the night..... non stop blinking...... shit happens.

i walked the whole day with her. it was nice catching up with her again. lots of girly talk hehe. didn't realise my toes skin got peeled because of the sandals. bleed quite alot.

i got into the house... my make-up smear and my eyes were hurt. i looked super horifying then.

i searched high and low for my facial wipe but i couldn't find it.

i got a brilliant idea that it could be in my travelling bag......

i almost reached it...... BIIINNGGG BAAANNNGGG BOOOOGGGG

i fell down from the stair case. ommmmggggggggggg............ my ankle sprained. it's painful. i can't walk much.

i got upstairs.... and puked again. yeah food poisoning again hehe. i know i knowwww.... i should take more white porridge and nothing else but white porridge.... aaiiyahhhh....

anyways, came across to this article online.

What happens to someone who has bulimia?
Bulimia can hurt your body. Look at the picture to find out how bulimia harms your health.

LIKE OMMMMGGGG!

GIRLS PLEASE CLICK ON THE PICTURE TO ENLARGE IT! PLEAASSSEEEE READ IT UP!

drummers and guitarists

2009-06-04T22:29:00.000-07:00

the time of the month is coming soon. it's too soon. i'm still not feeling good and healthy. this seriously suck alot. time to graduation is nearing as well. we're all gonna finish our final paper on the 3rd of july and there goes Taylorians of UniSA of July 2006. well, i'll be missing everything, from Pre-U up to university. so many things have happened, from sweet to sour to bitter. but all these bits of memories will stay fresh in my memory as long as i still live here. i'm gonna miss everyone and everything.

.Taylor's University College in partnership with University of South Australia.

.In Loving Memories year 2005 to 2009.

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haha okay i'll cut the crap now. it's too exaggerating. one great thing happened this morning. Dixon and Daniel performed live on stage after FA1 lecture. they performed Stigmatized by The Calling and Hey Jude by The Beatles. what truly amazes me is that they actually know Stigmatized when i would say that 90% of the world population wouldnt know that this song even existed. i love this song like..........HELL!

so both of them belong to a band called The Theory of Change. i watched them performed during prom night last year and sorry to say, it wasn't that fantastic. but obviously they're still learning and they wont be as pro as the musicians outside in just a few years of time. i didn't really fancy them...........

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until...... Daniel strummed his guitar and it was like....... HEAVEN! the song is just marvellous, purely romantic and the blood rush in me once again.

the performance ended and i was practically screaming to Daniel that I LOVE THIS SONG LIKE SHIT! and he was surprised that i love this song and in return i told him that i'm amazed because nobody knows this song at all and they actually played it! then he told me that he will dedicate this song to me if i go and watch them LIVE in whereever they're playing next.

well, obviously me, being a fanatic about drummers and guitarists, i told him it's a deal. i attend and you play.

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despite of the fact that i've been bragging about how fanatic i am towards musicians, the real issue here is that.......... I'M EVEN MORE CRAZY ABOUT MY FAT BF! AND I MISS HIS TEBI! both of us went for Neway K-Buffet last night. it was RM50 per person for karaoke session with buffet dinner served. it was awesome. and i enjoyed my time laughing at his vocals hehe. fyi, he loves to scream and yell instead of singing. and when it's my turn to sing, he'll make funny slangs and disrupt my beautiful voice.

oh btw, my singing may have improved. everyone tells me that i hold the microphone but i dont sing. helllooooooo i got sing la weh! but my sharp voice can't come out only hehe.

take for instance, i selected Celine Dion's My Heart Will Go On. fyi, i did not on the audio this time.... i actually forgotten to on it and i was singing.

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I SWEAR I THOUGHT IT WAS HER VOICE SINGING AND MY VOICE CANNOT COME OUT AGAIN.

but the truth is, IT WAS ACTUALLY MY VOICE!

i'm gonna be the next Celine Dion.

and paris hilton.....tyra banks........kim kardashian and bla bla bla.

okay im tired. toodles!

i wanna go!

2009-06-03T23:24:00.001-07:00

i'm sooooooo sad! i seriously wanna go! i actually forgotten about it until i got reminded and triggered again.

i wanna goooooo! but i cant gooooo.... sigggghhhhh.....

that day will never come lah.

anyways, back to assignments.

toodles! xoxo!

time of the month.

2009-06-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

it's the time of the month again.

i'm getting even more demotivated now.

shit happens.

it's a norm. don't worry. =)

toodles.

food!

2009-06-02T06:56:00.000-07:00

yooo hooo! yes despite of the stress im facing with assignments, i am surprisingly still able to waste some time dancing and blogging. oh yeah, i've decided to join the gym next month, right after exams. should i? yes i should. i need to shape up, god-willing of course.

speaking about shaping up? i just spent my weekends whacking on glorious buffet. i brought the siblings for sakae sushi buffet in Aeon and yep, it was worth it though. had like all the green and pink plates. the original price was supposed to be RM47 per person for the amount we have. but, due to the promotion, we ended up paying RM27 per person. so yeah, it's kinda worth it. almost half price.

so, we have a splendid meal and day. i diet throughout the whole night. couldn't eat because of the overload sushis.... marvellous.

anyways, had another splendid meal on saturday. the boyfriend and i hopped on to a restaurant in Bukit Raja Klang. it was a buffet bbq and steamboat. really special place. forgive me for the pictures. the boyfriend is not a talented photographer haha. anyways, they served lots of seafood, free flow of ice cream and soft drinks too. you can have a choice of dumping everything into the pot for steamboat, or grill your food on the aluminium foil with butter. another option is to leave your food to be barbequed by the side of your table with the hot burning coal haha. that one is a little troublesome because you tend to forget that part and the food would be overcooked and burnt. the buffet per person is about RM23.80. yep, it's worth the money.

right, i did not announce that i've got a little doggie at home. it's a mini schnauzer and its name is Tabby. yeaaaa it's a male haha. he's super naughty and cute. it's hard to whack him when he's naughty. well, the the boyfriend and i rare this dog for only one reason. Tabby is the symbol of our love. i mean, it's kinda good though. we slowly built a healthy and happy relationship and a family, with Tabby. he's exactly like a baby to us. i'm his mummy and he's his daddy hehe. yesss this dog is preparing me for my future pregnancy too. lol! it's already so hard taking care of a dog, whatmore a baby! zzzommmmggg!

and note to the boyfriend, i love you. i promise you that we'll walk through this rough and yet beautiful journey together.

so yeah, the day was boring as usual. had Adv class in the evening and i stayed back with a couple of friends to ask questions from the lecturer. yessss as usual, he did not exactly answer my question. boringgggg.... mun hong was traumatized with adv already, ja and novi are still looking good, cecilia has gone mad as well by pronouncing campaign as compaign. (she said the same sentence for two times and still got it wrong) hahahha! and i was..... prolly surviving haha.

thats it for today. toodles!

life as it is.

2009-05-25T20:17:00.000-07:00

i just wanna rest. i dont wanna work.

i just wanna sleep. i dont wanna work.

i just wanna wake up late and sleep late. i dont wanna work.

i just wanna go travelling. i dont wanna work.

how?

'get married to a rich man and dont have to work anymore-lah. hahahaha!'

dammit. i dont go to taylors for that lol.

i was thinking like having a month break before i start working. my initial plan was to travel around and do things before i dread myself into the miserable adulthood life.

but, nobody seems to understand.

i hate life.

anyways, the technicians in HP are cute hehe. and i was practically stranded there with my siblings for 2 hours just because bro's lappie has got 'serious' problems. so, when boredom strucks, it's always the best time to snack on tidbits. yeah, i drank like 2 cups of milo and a tiny pastry. i swear i was just too bored and did not purposely eat it with the intention to curb on my cravings for food.

again, i hate life.

my life's gonna be pretty right after the final exams.

in specific, i hate study and working life.

i want a baby! hehe! ethan boy is like getting so fat and chubby. and sri, update your baby pictures too! sorry, not your baby hehe!

uurrggghhhh...... life is never beautiful when you have to abstain yourself from the glorious cuisines. it makes u even more emo, stress and sick.

what i hate again?

oh yeah....... life.

ps: this post is not meant to condemn or complain. it's just an emotional period of me due to PMS.

got pranked again.

2009-05-21T08:04:00.000-07:00

HHHHHOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWW!

i dont wanna get caught for plagiarism for PR2! OMMMGGG!

yepppp all of us were caught in plagiarism for advertising assignment.

but obviously it's nothing very serious. we didnt cite our references properly.

that is why im fkin worried for my pr2! i didnt exactly do it properly. i was too lazy to cite and paraphrase properly. die lar! i cant fail! if i fail i will jump into the Klang river! i swear!

anyways, yeppp the class pranked on me again. i was late for advertising class..... carrying a cup of bubble tea treated by rebecca. i was walking so happily in to the class..........

UNTIL...................

most of them claimed that i got caught plagiarised for the second assignment.... 67%! so the pranking session goes on and on and on and i was about to pee in my skirt!

damn.

i'm sleepy, giddy, nausea and sick.

it's PR presentation tomorrow and i'm not ready. i feel like........running away to Africa and never come back to Malaysia to face my studies.

J Card Day

2009-05-14T02:12:00.001-07:00

J card day is seriously awesome. i mean, having really good deals with all the expensive brands?!

that's super worth it. i was drooling. but i couldnt buy it. prolly i'll get them all tonight!

why didn't i buy it this afternoon?

i was buying 4 packs of bed sheets, 2 New Balance sports shoes, 2 working pants for mommy, all sorts of food and junkies in the supermarket.... and i'm dead tired. i was there for like 3 hours. only god knows how long am i gonna be there tonight. craaaapppp....

i think i'm gonna get some toilettries, groceries, clothes and shoes with the boyfriend tonight.

i love you te bi. can't wait to see you tonight!

lookout point!

2009-05-11T20:55:00.000-07:00

yooooo! IBPF IS KILLING ME! I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO THE DAMNED ASSIGNMENT! okay whatever. so i just wanna pamper and kill time by posting up several pictures last saturday.

------I FINALLY WENT TO LOOKOUT POINT!-----

seriously i dont remember the road there because it's too complicated. we got lost few times. so i wont be going there again provided that someone knows exactly where the place is hehe.

*sneak preview of the beautiful me before going to lookout point hehe.

*the following pictures are all in Lookout Point itself.

*lamb briyani

*half chicken

*seafood pizza

*med lamb

*grilled lambchop

*3 flavoured layers of fruit juice

*chicken wings

so that is all for the scenaries and wonderful journey of us. next stop shall be shabu shabu in puchong!

joke for the day

2009-05-08T00:34:00.000-07:00

Kids Are Quick
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TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America .
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.
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TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
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TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
(I Love this kid)
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TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.
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TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!
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TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
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TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie....... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
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TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
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TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
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TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE: No, sir. It's the same dog.
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TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

pig!

2009-05-05T21:40:00.000-07:00

btw, i'm starting to eat like a pig. how!!!!!

but you can't blame me righttt..... i've got a valid reason! i'm on my period!

it's not wrong to eat like a pig. it's not wrong to sleep like a pig. it's not wrong to be emotional.

but! all my joggings are gonnnneeee.... hooooowwww...

i just had my brunch.... bread, eggs, sausage.... and they're like... alot! and i had fried chicken during dinner last night! ommmgggg!

i'm so dead. how how how how how....

ok it's time to angkat sumpah now.

* i promise and keep my vows that i will continue to jog and diet after my period is over.

* i promise that i will keep eating until i become 100kgs and die happily hahahahaha!

til then toodless!

mixed emotions.

2009-05-05T20:34:00.000-07:00

what do you feel when people call you.....

stupid?

no brains?

dumb?

blur?

idiot?

fucked up?

crazy?

bitch?

asshole?

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and what do you feel when someone calls you....

beautiful?

smart?

caring?

gorgeous?

the best thing on earth?

wonderful?

amazing?

ellegant?

charming?

loving?

happy?

cheerful?

well, this post is just a random thought. i've got friends who do not feel appreciated by their loved ones whether by family, friends or lovers. and some of them even attempted suicide because they do not feel it's worth living anymore. but some of them, of course, although insulted, they can still put on a smile on their face and pretend as if nothing happened.

what do you think?

yes, we all know that suicidal is stupid and seriously brainless to do so.

but i've been through it, i mean, my close friends would know how stupid i was to even think about it.

but, i do understand what these friends are going through. i know how upset and miserable they feel.

i just hope that people can be more understanding and give a way for these poor friends to live happily til the day they die.

do you know that if you give negative feedback to a person everyday, it will automatically brainwash that person and they will be as negative as you say?

and... do you know that if you give positive and happy feedback to a person everyday, it will automatically gives confidence and life to that person?

i tried my best to make everyone around me happy. whenever they're down, i will give them joy, happiness and very extremely positive feedback so that they will feel that the world isn't that cruel and they can move on happily. i used to be depressed when i was in high school. so i totally understand what these people are going through. all they need is a little hope in life. so, i do give my best to give them words of courage and comfort.

these poor friends just want to feel appreciated in every way whether by heart, looks, beauty, feelings and whatever it is. i used to have a friend, whom i always scold her for being blur. and i kinda realise now that i shouldn't have scolded and be sarcastic to her. but, i scolded her is because i cared for her, i wanted her to know that it's not good to be blur all the time. but, my approach is wrong. i should have taught her and tell her properly. now i know what is the feeling of not being appreciated.

i have a friend, who used to think that she's not good enough to everyone, thinks that she's not beautiful, fat, stupid and dumb. and, i did approach her in the right way. i adviced her like few years that we have to love ourselves before anyone can love us. and true enough, she is living happily now and it's her turn to advice me lol.

well i gave lots of advice and hope to other people since i was young. i wanted to do more good by giving them hope and happiness. and i'm really glad over these few years they have stood up high and live their life happily. but when it comes to me, i crashed down, forgetting all the words of wisdom i gave to them.

when they came to me, they gave me a hard time. they scolded and yelled at me.

'szu yin... wtf is wrong with you... you used to tell me that life is beautiful and people who do not appreciate us should be shot dead twice! and bla bla bla bla.... why are you feeling so depressed now! don't you remember what you told us last time? where is the old you! what happen to you! stop fucking crying and find your old self'

riggghhttt.... they're very mean =p but yeah, they did that is to knock my head hard. and thank you all for reminding me how great i was haha!

of course i will try my best to find the pieces of me. but to some other friends who are still depressed, please be strong. always remember that i'm always here to protect and take care of you no matter what.

last but not least, thanks to the girls for getting me the 'rubber tree' shirt haha! i really wanna wear it to college but abit the scared haha.

toodles people!

aargghhh!

2009-05-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

eeeeeeeeeeeee.............aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.................gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr.........

stress...... but kinda had a lil fun this evening before advertising class...

i reached there quite late. and friends did not enter the classroom... and all told me to go back.. class cancelled... i panic giler... i was like complaining and winding that i came all the way from Klang and now i've to go back! ommmgggg bla bla bla... and yeahhh they all pulled 50% prank and Mr.Laghari actually intended to cancel class... ommmggg...

i stress giler with FA1 assignment. so many confusion, so many arguments, so many contradicting answers..... stress gilllerrrr.... and i had to end up with some fights..... stresssss...

so after the evening session with some friends in Old Town, things got complicated. i went off to look for Petronas near the police station in SS15 and i ended up in USJ.. took the wrong road, stuck in unneccessary jam and cried like nobody's business. it's either im too stupid too look at roads, or it's the roads fault!

so ended up in the station finally. and one idiot guy who attended my car was like... so dumb... and i shown him my temper and agitated face angrily. serves him right for working as an attendant there. A BIG HUH TO YOUR FACE!

finally managed to get off SS15 and rushed back home. mum wanted me to pump petrol in Petronas again. ohhhh i was pumping gas earlier on. so i was in the middle lane of Kesas, trying to get into the other lane to go Petronas and one idiot dumb fuck van driver was driving so slow and smiling and waving to me..

SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU BITCH. WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO SMILE AND WAVE AT ME. YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A BIG FAT LOSER.

and i wasn't even dressed sexily, or with make ups on. i guess i did look beautiful in the dark... like zzzzommmmggg!

sooo pissed. people are sick nowadays.

sigh.... where is everyone when i need somebody to talk to?

toodles *angrily*!

Miki's belated birthday post

2009-05-04T21:13:00.000-07:00

late post.... late post...

As mentioned in my previous post, San Fransisco Steakhouse is definitely much better than TGIF and yep, the pictures below just portray the ultimate delicious mouth watering dishes.

We celebrated Miki's birthday approximately a month ago and hope she enjoyed herself back then! haha.

.introducing the new Haagen Daaz cappucino dont know what name.

the price of the food is kinda reasonable. it is at least affordable for the portion and its quality, definitely way better than TGIF. moreover, the ambience is absolutely fantastic and it's remarkably romantic i shall say.

i think they have two outlets, one in Midvalley and another in Subang Jaya. i'm not sure if there is any other outlets available in Selangor or Kuala Lumpur.

right, when am i gonna get started with my assignments?

crap.

toodles!

Fireman's place and Scarlet

2009-05-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

updates.... updates...

visited Fireman BBQ and Steamboat in the Curve last few weeks i think. the promotional price was RM20 per person and the 4th person after the first three will be free of charge. okay i'm confusing myself and your readers. well, let's put in simple Malaysian terms.....

'BUY 3 FREE 1'

sounds better? haha

anyway, went there with the boyfriend and his colleagues for someone's farewell...... right, her name's coco and i met her like... three times i think.. during yamcha and movie sessions... she's quite nice, considering that she does take an effort trying to get to know me when the boyfriend leaves me for a ciggy puff... zzzz.....

we kinda sat in the same table with his manager and his family.. a lil boring to be precise. but the immature me feels a lil glorified having to sit at the same table with big shot. haha yeah i never talk to him of course nor to his family members... just a smile for courtesy.

after the big fat dinner, we headed off to Scarlet. yeppp my itchiness has been cured at that point of time. but the music kinda suck but the ambience was alright as usual. well, i gotta admit i haven't been in the club for like..... 2625372920101013847362628 years already. it was difficult for the first few months. the itch, the hunger, the dread, the crave..... it was all strong that it could kill me a 100 times.

but, the itch isn't here anymore. i'm kinda..... clean, as in i'm a good innocent girl now. haha yeah my head right lol. i miss everyone in barcelona, the good old friends, the retards and freaks hehehe. yeah only justine will know who i'm talking about haha.

but i'm getting older now. it's time to be serious, i seriously need to apply or hunt for a job at least but im too lazy. i feel like staying home for 2 months then only start working haha. let's just see how long i can last.

i just celebrated dad's birthday half an hour ago. i'm bloated with cakes now. i had like three slices! yeah my jogging for extra miles are all gone. dammit.

here are some snapshots taken in Scarlet and the Fireman's place.

. i fell in love with him once again with this picture.

.some of his colleagues.

.my fat boy.

.i should have signed my name there.

till then. toodles!

happy birthday fat sis.

2009-05-04T03:00:00.000-07:00

not really a monday blue.

had sister's birthday celebration on the 1st of May 2009. yeahhh she's borned in the labour day. went to TGIF for dinner and seriously, im kinda sick of TGIF already. we just cant have it too much. and the food has deteriorate for some reason.

anyway,we have the crew to sing the birthday song. well, at least it's a live entertainment
to make the ambience a little more happening.

next stop, San Fransisco Steak House.... the food is really good there, providing that they maintain their quality.

and oowwhhh! i'm going for Dim Sum Buffet AGAIN tomorrow. i went there a couple of days back and the price is a kinda worth it. it's RM15 for all you can eat dim sum buffet in Bandar Baru Klang in the weekdays and RM19.80 during public holidays. but of course in addition with chinese tea and taxes the cost shall be approximately RM 17 plus person during the weekdays.

i'll be taking more pictures tomorrow and you readers can try it out there. ask me for directions hehe.

til then.. toodles!

p.s: pictures are scattered and they are not in order.

monday again.

2009-05-03T21:26:00.000-07:00

monday blueeesss....

found an interesting site which i thought i could share it out with some of you. It's an interesting interview with Mahathir and there are probably some racial tension issues here. but it was an interesting interview overall.

http://www.asian-affairs.com/Malaysia/mahathir.html

toodles!

miracle.

2009-05-01T22:30:00.001-07:00

owhhhh im finally smart enough to figure out where to add the pictures to my blog! zzzommmgg! all i have to do is just click this tiny horrifying annoying idiotic damned icon! weeee my life is like back to square one again.. zzooommmg!

i have several posts to be put up but seriously, i dont have all the pictures nor the time gives me the privillege to do so. hence, i think i'm pretty much screwed up with excessive workloads and god, i need a break.

promise with hugs and kisses that i will by hook or by crook get the pictures uploaded asap and there ya go, another chapter in my life.

i wanna thank my best-est friend for giving me the tiny hope and believe that there is still miracle in life. and thank god for granting me the miracles, but i know there is a price to pay for every miracle given.

i know that there is not suppose to be any miracles in life but i now believe that no matter how life treats you, you will still be given the slightest joy of miracle that you will never expect to get in your whole life.

i promise to do more charity provided i'm blessed with a good financial standing, i promise i will not harm anyone or do anything stupid which screw up my life again.

it's a new chapter, a new life, a new leaf to turn over.

okay im stressed with blogspot again. how do i insert smileys or emoticons! arrghhhh!

welcome!

2009-04-29T20:59:00.000-07:00

and i'm still as confused as i used to be few years back when i had this blogspot. arrghhhh xanga isn't and will never be functioning anymore. right, i'm suppose to get done with my work and now i'm checking out this blogspot.

right... i'm still confused. how to post up pics! how to change the theme of the blog! how to this how to that... can somebody like.... take over my blog and write out my diaries haha.

okay i'm gonna play with this again in a few hours. till then.

toodles!